Second Weekend Detox….A Willing Mind

      

This past weekend was the second weekend on the detox journey and I’m happy to report the second was greater than the first! We were out of town this weekend so that presented a much different challenge than the first weekend. It was a weekend full of a hotel stay but also seeing old friends and fellowship and of course food. I wasn’t sure how I would eat great staying in a hotel and being confined to limited space but I made it work. We stayed in a suite with a mini refrigerator and I packed up my Vitamix! I went to the grocery store and bought all my fruits and veggies and simulated home for two days the best I could. You can see the pictures of all my produce, the produce stuffed in the mini fridge and you can see the final product-beautiful, healthy juice to start my days. I felt great!

One thing I know for sure is that where there’s a will, there’s a way. I could have easily ate the usual hotel fare at the hotel breakfast buffet but I decided to stay committed and do whatever was necessary to eat the best I could. 

We went to a friends house for dinner on Saturday and they were kind enough to have an awesome raw salad waiting on me that was first of all gorgeous, second it was healthy and lastly, it tasted great. They made a homemade lemon basil dressing and homemade fruit sherbet for me for dessert. I can’t tell you how special that was. So Day 13 was awesome.

On Sunday, Day 14 I started my day with my wonderful 32 oz juice and for dinner that day I was able to get me healthy food and vegan options at Earth Fare. Very delicious! 

There was plenty around me all weekend that wasn’t raw or healthy but I managed to persevere and not eat any of it. And it didn’t require any self talk. Just a willing mind and I had strength untold to say no to the “no’s” and yes’s to the good stuff. 

I’m so grateful I made it through! It’s now Day 15!! Let’s get it. Last week of detox…stay tuned. 

First Weekend Struggles-Detox Journey 

The detox journey continues and this past weekend was different than the week. On Saturday, I planned well and started off with a great smoothie and had 32 oz juice. I also packed my lunch and several snacks that were on my approved list. I was good until 5 pm and all of a sudden something kicked in mentally and I wanted to EAT! Eat anything that was not on my “approved” list. I didn’t want salad or fruit or nuts or water. I wanted to taste carbonation and sweet and cold. Hmm that’s not water. Not even close. The struggle began to amp up and all of a sudden I felt like I was in a mental warfare where I literally had to pray and fight and fight and pray. I had a house full of kids Saturday night for a sleepover but of course sleepovers are all about food and fun. Originally I was going to do pizza for the kids but I literally could taste the pizza in my mouth and I knew if I did I would eat pizza and the detox journey would have ended on Day 7. So I decided to make quesadillas because that’s still a fun kid food but most importantly it wasn’t anything I was craving like pizza and I felt I could say no to that. I made them and the struggle intensified. Not so much that I wanted quesadillas. I just simply wanted to eat. I wanted to taste flavor. I fixed plates for the kids and then proceeded to go upstairs and eat my natural, low calorie popcorn. For the next two hours until I went to bed, I had to do constant self-talk, pray and stay committed to not eat anything I didn’t need to. I finally realized my only self help I could do was to just go to sleep and wake up to a brand new day. And…that’s what I did. I slept and woke up on Sunday, Day 9 with renewed strength and determination. So, I made it thorough the first weekend and the second weekend is here. I’m on Day 12 and I’m praying and hoping I can have success again….this time without two hours of self-talk:-) Stay tuned. 

What’s wrong with my palate? Day 4 Detox

  

It’s the morning of Day 4 and I woke up not feeling juice, veggies, fruit or anything I’m supposed to eat. But conversely there’s nothing unhealthy I’m craving either. I can’t even think of anything that sounds good to eat. 

I went to juice bar at the hotel this morning and they had only four options to choose from and none sounded exciting. I saw the ingredient fennel in one of them and immediately thought to myself “How committed are you really?” Lol. Who puts fennel in a juice? How many of you know what fennel is without help from Google? Regardless lets just say it’s not strawberries. So I chose the best I could out of the four choices which was pineapple, cucumber and mint as pictured above. The taste….not good. You gotta really like cucumbers. And u really don’t. Couple on a salad I can stomach but not a major ingredient in my juice. I tried to drink but today I just couldn’t. Then I got me a plate of fruit with strawberries and pineapples. I put in my mouth and it tasted super sweet like it had extra sugar on it. What’s wrong with my palate? Nothing has tasted good this morning. Nothing at all. I’ve managed three glasses of water so far and have taken 8 of my 20+ plus detox pills I gotta take so that’s on track. What’s for lunch? I have no idea and nothing sounds good. I know I must eat because if I get too hungry that’s not good. Stay tuned to hear the ever changing detox journey. 

First 48- Day 2 Detox

  Yes yes I survived day 1 and I’m more than halfway through Day 2! If you are behind, check out yesterday’s blog. I’m counting each moment as success because it is definitely a moment by moment journey. Overall I’m doing ok and better than expected physically. Both mornings have been rough but once I’ve gotten past that rough 8-10 am hour it has been manageable. I did great yesterday all the way up to last night and I felt pretty bad with headache and extreme weakness. This is apparently normal.

I traveled today so it made honoring my healthy commitment a bit more challenging but doable. I started my morning at 6 am with 20 oz. homemade fruit and vegetable juice. After passing through the security gate before boarding the plane, I was hunting for healthy food choices. I came away with some trail mix and low fat popcorn. I munched some on the plane ride and hunger and turbulence doesn’t go together well AT ALL. But I made it through. I made it then to Atlanta airport and just knew I would find a plethora of healthy options. I got off plane and ran smack into Popeyes! I quickly sped up and found my gate area and all I walked away with was a banana and an orange. Yep that’s it.

So now as I am at the end of my day I’ve discovered in the first 48 hours that for me eating healthy requires preparation, commitment, and perseverance. I’ve had to mentally prepare and logistically prepare what I’m going to eat, where will I be and think about the most acceptable eating path when I don’t have my juicer in my back pocket. That is different for me and requires work on my part. My job is stressful and complete with breakfast meetings , get to know lunches, and social dinners frequently. I eat what is there and it’s easier to not think after having to think on all the other stresses of my job. But to be successful in this, I HAVE to think, plan and prepare.

Also, I’m discovering there is a mental part to this and a physical part. The physical part is just plain being hungry and those instances in the morning have been the worst. Hunger will decide and make choices for you lol! It bypasses my mind and logic. Logic takes a vacation and rationale takes the front seat. Rationale begins to speak up loudly and say ” you are hungry! , you need food, grab that biscuit, hunger is of the devil, hunger was not made for man, you deserve to eat, you gotta eat! Does any of this sound familiar? Or maybe only I have rationale screaming at me!! Nonetheless, I am trying to push pass the hunger, balance my eating and try to avoid hunger, and keep healthy snacks readily available.

So first 48 is about to be over and I’m grateful I’ve made it each hour. Stay tuned!!

Detox-Let’s Go

It’s June 1, 2015 and today I’m embarking on detox cleanse. Not sexy huh? No it’s not but necessary. I consider it a vacation for my body to relax, rejuvenate and repair itself from all the damage I’ve created inside. Our bodies take a beating daily with what we eat, how little we sleep, not enough exercise and the mental stress we carry from day to day. After doing that so long, the body begins to slow down, fill with diseases and “putters” when we try to move like we 20! So I’ve decided to take a break from as much unhealthy foods and lifestyle that I possibly can. I’ll be eating 75% raw as much as possible and no sweets, sugar, fried foods, breads, and sodas. Compared to what I normally eat, my body is probably going to panic and be all confused! But my hope and prayer is that after all the panic and confusion, I’ll feel better and feel the difference of healthy vs. unhealthy. My goal is to embark on this for three weeks…let’s go!

2013 Resolutions in First Class

I guess if I took the time to make New Year’s resolutions, I have to blog and post it before February 1 huh? I wrote them out and gave them thought early December 2012, but have not made it to the computer yet to actually publish them. I also went back and reflected on my 2012 resolutions. Below are the 4 things I committed to in 2012 and an update and grade on each:

1. Rewrite my DNA-I would give myself a C+ on this one overall just because this is probably the hardest thing to accomplish and certainly cannot be done in 12 months. When it comes to effort though, I would give myself a B. This was constantly on my mind throughout the year and I tried to be self-aware and make needed adjustments along the way. Silence was my most important ally in this process. Learning and teaching myself that every thing I think does not have to be said nor should it be. By being silent, I was able to take time and evaluate what I was really feeling and evaluate the root cause of my feelings and then deal with it from there. So many times, the words we say create damage far beyond the circumstance they were spoken in. I think 2012 was a year of awareness for me in this year and confirmed the rewrite really should take place; therefore, it will be on the list again in 2013. Also as part of the rewrite process, I not only became aware of the things that needed to change but also the things that were ok to stay.

2. Lose 30 more lbs-Grade of B even though the end result was not accomplished. I did not lose 30 lbs this year at all much to my disappointment but I did run my first 5K in May and that was indeed a huge accomplishment. I even surprised myself and am so proud to say I completed. I was also a week away from doing a second 5K but had to pause on running for back issues and pain I started having in June. 10 months out of 2012,I exercised faithfully and without hesitation. That is a huge win for me!

3. Helping others-Grade of A. I think that I did a good job in this area and have several examples of how I have helped others emotionally, professionally and financially this year. I also feel I was able to help others and take care of me at the same time. Two years ago I had a resolution to learn how to take care of myself because I had sunk into being everyone else’s savior but my own.

4. Shaping character of my children-Grade of B in terms of effort. I intentionally tried to spend more time with my kids and set certain parameters in place with work and other external things that helped me with this. I think this is an area like #1 that is a continuous process and ongoing.

So overall for 2012-it looks like I had a B average and I think that is a good result. So many people steer clear of New Year’s resolutions because they are forgotten by February 1. But, for me it is a great way to outline what I want to accomplish and serves me far better than if I never took the time to think about it and write down what I want to accomplish.

Now 2013 has started and below are the things I have identified to work on. Also this year I have a theme of “Living a First Class vs. Coach Lifestyle”. I want my decisions, interactions and efforts to be first class and not just mediocre. I simply want to care about the things I choose to do and do the things I care about.

1. Continuation of DNA Rewrite

2. Lose weight and engage in exercise as part of my regular lifestyle

3. Dedicated time with children I have committed to a quarterly Mommy/daughter date with Lauren and have several things outlined/planned I want to do with her and teach her. And with Lucas, my focus will be on helping him learn to read.

4. Personal development-I want to learn how to swim and how to chopsticks as two items for my personal development. Well, I shouldn’t say I want to learn how to swim…I NEED to learn how to swim. It is long overdue and just needed.

So, I am off to the races and ready to launch into this new year. I am excited about the possibilities! I am excited about approaching things in a first class and not a coach mentality. And I am expecting first class results.

Happy New Year 2012

Happy New Year 2012!! I have made it to see a new year and I am thankful for that. This is one of the few times in recent years that I was actually awake when the new year came in. As typical like most, at the beginning of a new year, you start to reflect on what happened in the previous year and what you want to happen in the new year. What usually results in a list of New Year’s Resolutions. Some people are committed to doing them every year while some say they don’t work so they purposely avoid them. Well, I typically set some, but this year I wanted to evaluate how I did with the ones I sent in the beginning of 2011. So, ..I went back to my blog post from January 2011 and here are the things I resolved to do in 2011 and the update on what I actually DID:
  • Reviving a spiritual connection with God to include daily prayer and devotion-Mmmm, I do think I revived my spiritual connection with God but I am nowhere near pleased  about my consistency and fervor that I know I need in this area. But there is progress still being made on this one and I am thankful that I did not go backwards, but in my heart and mind I have a desire to move forward.
  • Practice healthy habits-drinking more water, exercise, better eating choices, and earlier bedtime-Overall, I would say I did a good job with this definitely in terms of my effort and awareness. I lost 25lbs this year and kept it off!! Although my original goal was to lose 40+ lbs, I am so thankful that I did something and maintained it. 
  • Focus on work/life blending-saying no to some work activities or events so that I can spend more time at home-I started in a new role January 25 which was not part of the plan when I did my New Year’s resolutions. So the first few months of the year, the work/life blending was more of a blur than a blend just to get acclimated to the new job. But, later in the year I did get this better under control and things started to blend together definitely more.
  • More intentionally focused time with my husband and children-I would give myself an average grade on this one. I was definitely more aware and tried to purposely plan time in to do this. I often would try to arrange my schedule some days so I could pick up kids early or keep the weekends and extra time free just so we could spend quiet time together at home. I was able to go on a field trip with Lauren’s class to the Alabama Theatre and made it to the annual Thanksgiving dinner at her school.
  • Taking care of me-doing things for me even when I have to say NO to others-YEA!!! I took care of me this year more so than I have in the past. I became more comfortable with saying no to others if it meant that I was taking care of me. Some phone calls I let go to voicemail so I could give my kids focused attention at dinner instead of multitasking dipping food on the kids’ plates while a phone is glued to my ear. Other times I have said no to other people simply because it meant doing for them would cause myself to go lacking. I did not do this from a selfish standpoint, but did it to take care of me which has long been lacking. I have found that often times I took care of others  and their needs and I was left wanting and when I did not have anything left to give them, they were just fine and moved on either to the next person or were fine without me catering to their needs.

Would I have done those things without my set of New Years resolutions? I am not sure I would have had the focused and deliberate attention I did this year. I think mentally going through the exercise, documenting it and then verbalizing it to someone else gives your resolutions all a more firm foundation. So, as I approach 2012 I have some continued resolutions that I want to work on. My first resolution has cracked a few people up when I tell them:

1. Rewrite my DNA! Yes, that is right. People think that is so funny and then they quickly ask me “How are you going to do that?” I reply and say I do not know, but I plan to do it. Watching my family and observing my kids I come quickly to the conclusion that DNA is STRONG! It is amazing to me how my kids can act just like me and their dad without any training, coercing, or intentional transfer on our part. It is just in them. I guess that is what you call DNA. Well….they are certain things I do not like about myself on how I respond to things, things that I do and I ask myself “Why do I do that?’ It is my default character in situations and it is frankly my DNA that I was born with, uncultivated and unadulterated. Yet, I still want to change some of those unwanted tendencies and habits. Hence…the rewriting of my DNA. My first goal is acceptance of who I am and being ok that there are parts I love and there are some parts I love less. Second, I will work on awareness and use internal observation to check and gauge how I am responding to things and take an alternate approach when I am acting my “usual” way but the not the way I would like. Trust me..this will be a continued work in progress.

2. Lose 30 more lbs. in 2012. This is just a continuation of what I have already started in 2011 so I will just continue to persevere towards that goal. Part of this goal to live a better, healthier life is to try to run in a 5K this year. I am contemplating walking/running in my first 5K in May and this will be a huge accomplishment if I go through with it and pull it off.

3. Helping others- I have a continued desire to help others in any way that I can whether it be through finances, knowledge, material needs, etc. I think we are all blessed with something we can give to the cause of others and we often fail to do this. Going through the recent death in our family has shown me glimpses of how to be more compassionate and attuned to the needs of others. I simply want to help where I can.

4. Shaping the character of my children-Lauren will be 9 this year and Lucas will turn 4. Time is quickly moving and I feel like the clock has run off and left me when it comes to the work I feel I need to do with my children. I want them to become well-mannered, hard-working and ethical young people who are accountable for themselves and that have a compassion for others. But, most importantly I want to truly give them the gift of having a relationship with Christ. If they have that, all the other things will come in succession. So, my job this year is to be an example at home (which is why I have to re-write my DNA) and then tell them about the great example of God.

Four main things. All four are the work of a lifetime ,not just 365 days. But..there has to be a beginning in order for an ending or completion to come.

So…I will start on my journey today with a renewed commitment and desire to become a better me in 2012!